Happiness. How can one find it amidst all the pain and loneliness and feeling of not being loved? How can one choose to be happy when one don't even know where to start? I was left behind yet not completely let go of. I am left hanging. I can't move on yet I am not allowed to hold on. I don't know where to go. Not sure what lies ahead. I'm just so lost. And when I thought I've found what could finally make me happy, or at least make me forget that I'm sad, that too was taken away from me too soon. I am just so broken. And this is bringing out the drama queen in me. Excuse me while I throw up..