Have you ever given up anything for God? Have you let something dear to you go, just because you know it's not what God wants for your life?
I have and it wasn't easy. Although I knew why I had to do it, it took years before I finally did. And God promised to replaced it with something spectacular, yet after months of praying and seeking Him, I end up feeling cheated.
I wanna scream and blame God for this loneliness and tell Him off for letting me be alone. I ask Him over and over to send a replacement for that person He asked me to let go but here I am, spending lonely nights crying my heart out and hurting because I have no one.
Until He made me realize that the replacement I wanted, is not what I needed. And He has in fact already given me back what I let go for Him. It's just not in the package I expected it to be.
You see, God gave me new friends. My Happy Berries. Godly friends who I can run to and talk to and be open with. I don't hold back anything from them and I tell them even my struggles. I've never had anyone like them in my life before. And I would never have found them had I remained in my past life. It may not be the relationship I hoped for but it's actually better. I lost one important person but I gained 3 more -- equally important people. Friends I instantly fell in love with. Friends who are journeying with me in my walk with God.
I realized that God never left me empty handed. I just didn't see it that way. But then again we can't see a lot if we're focusing on small details. I just needed to step back a bit so I can see the whole picture.
He said to me before to just let go and you'll understand... And now I think I do.
