This is probably why the geek in me comes out and turns to google when I don't understand something. I like researching. I like knowing. I like knowing a lot. And I'd love to know what the future holds.
But God said no. He doesn't keep me in the loop of all His plans for me. I got no blueprint, no event profile, no script. But don't get me wrong, God is not mean. He does allow me to see what lies right in front of me. But beyond that, I don't know.
Why?
So I can constantly ask Him. So I can consistently seek Him. So I can continually let Him be my guide as He unfolds the perfect plans He has for my life. It's not easy for me what with my low EQ and all. But because of His grace, I am able.
Come to think of it, I surprise myself when I look back and see my successes and the goals I've reached when I honestly have no idea what I'm doing half the time. But I know that where I am now is exactly where God wants me to be. He told me so. But it's all Him and none of me that got me here.
I like defining things and knowing what they mean. But right now, I don't have clarity of things ahead. And that's ok. If everything is clear to me at this moment I'd be screwed coz then it means that I don't need Him anymore.
I like trusting God. He is my guide. Apart from Him I'm a messed up, confused being.
There is so much more I want to tell you, but you can’t bear it now. When the Spirit of truth comes, he will guide you into all truth. He will not speak on his own but will tell you what he has heard. He will tell you about the future. He will bring me glory by telling you whatever he receives from me. (John 16:12-14, NLT)
*My thoughts on Elevation Church's Grey Matter Series, The Taurus and the Fox
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