As I look back at the life we had, I cannot help but feel a deep sense of longing. How can I not when we've built a life together, planned for the future and assured each other that we want to grow old together.
I remember all the nights we shared, the road trips we took, the late night conversations over wine and all those other times spent like the whole world is ours. I will never forget the things we had together.
You have no idea how clear each and every memory of you is to me. Because how can I forget the very person who held the biggest part of my heart?
You have always been my favorite person. You will always hold a special place in my heart because regardless of the short lived relationship we shared, you created a huge impact in my life and have influenced a big part of who and what I am today.
You will always be the best thing that I have let go.
For now though, I am slowly accepting that maybe we aren't really meant to be with each other. That maybe, there is a different plan for me, one that I know nothing as of yet. Maybe there is someone else destined to be with me. And while it's heartbreaking to think that you changed your mind about spending the rest of your life with me, I am trying hard to be happy for you --- to be happy for both of us.
I don't have the slightest clue on how I can even begin to heal knowing how settled and content you are with the decision of choosing her over me, while I am left alone to put the broken pieces back together.
But I know how strong I am that I will eventually mend this heartache.
I know that time will help me understand why you left. I'm sure that the universe is setting up a grand plan for me to meet the right person who will fill my life with so much joy and my heart with so much love better than you did. I know that there is someone who will look at me in the very same way you look at her. Soon enough I will remember you ---- I will remember us --- and these feelings will no longer hurt me.
And when that day comes, my heart will be ready to be taken cared of again, by someone who will be honored to own and complete it. I will be so happy in someone else's arms that the pain you gave me will become irrelevant. I will see my reflection in someone else's eyes and be overwhelmed to realize that it feels just right.
I will no longer doubt myself and try to figure out what's wrong with me, why I wasn't chosen despite the circumstances and past experiences. Why you decided to run back to the very person you ran away from. Time will come that I will be the one decision someone will make that will change their life and I will be certain that the love I'm sharing is going to be given back to me in full --- the way I truly deserve it.
I will then know that the world is good to me again. Like you, I will be content and satisfied with my life and the person I have chosen knowing I have everything that makes my heart beat wildly. I will no longer miss the things I lost and the person that caused me so much pain.
And I will be matured enough to know and completely accept why the universe decided that we should not be together, forever.
I remember all the nights we shared, the road trips we took, the late night conversations over wine and all those other times spent like the whole world is ours. I will never forget the things we had together.
You have no idea how clear each and every memory of you is to me. Because how can I forget the very person who held the biggest part of my heart?
You have always been my favorite person. You will always hold a special place in my heart because regardless of the short lived relationship we shared, you created a huge impact in my life and have influenced a big part of who and what I am today.
You will always be the best thing that I have let go.
For now though, I am slowly accepting that maybe we aren't really meant to be with each other. That maybe, there is a different plan for me, one that I know nothing as of yet. Maybe there is someone else destined to be with me. And while it's heartbreaking to think that you changed your mind about spending the rest of your life with me, I am trying hard to be happy for you --- to be happy for both of us.
I don't have the slightest clue on how I can even begin to heal knowing how settled and content you are with the decision of choosing her over me, while I am left alone to put the broken pieces back together.
But I know how strong I am that I will eventually mend this heartache.
I know that time will help me understand why you left. I'm sure that the universe is setting up a grand plan for me to meet the right person who will fill my life with so much joy and my heart with so much love better than you did. I know that there is someone who will look at me in the very same way you look at her. Soon enough I will remember you ---- I will remember us --- and these feelings will no longer hurt me.
And when that day comes, my heart will be ready to be taken cared of again, by someone who will be honored to own and complete it. I will be so happy in someone else's arms that the pain you gave me will become irrelevant. I will see my reflection in someone else's eyes and be overwhelmed to realize that it feels just right.
I will no longer doubt myself and try to figure out what's wrong with me, why I wasn't chosen despite the circumstances and past experiences. Why you decided to run back to the very person you ran away from. Time will come that I will be the one decision someone will make that will change their life and I will be certain that the love I'm sharing is going to be given back to me in full --- the way I truly deserve it.
I will then know that the world is good to me again. Like you, I will be content and satisfied with my life and the person I have chosen knowing I have everything that makes my heart beat wildly. I will no longer miss the things I lost and the person that caused me so much pain.
And I will be matured enough to know and completely accept why the universe decided that we should not be together, forever.